Rabbi Shoshanah in israel
Listen, Learn, Witness
In the days before I left for Israel, I began, in my sketchbook, to try my hand at drawing anemones. These red flowers are the national flower of Israel, but also represent the land and its people. The Hebrew word for this kind of flower is kalanit (kalaniot is plural). It represents hope, resilience, and beauty. I was struck by the many works of art I have seen online since Oct. 7 featuring peaceful kibbutz fields of red flowers. (Artists illustrate reactions to Oct. 7 at Jerusalem's Outline Festival | The Times of Israel). Teaching myself to draw them was a way to begin turning my heart to the journey ahead. Kalaniot graced the park I used to pass when I lived in Jerusalem, and they stood out as part of the unique flora of the land. In my days of travel on this trip, there were particular kalaniot that stood out. Unlike the blossoms that fluttered outside kibbutzim and in the parks of Jerusalem, these kalaniot were permanent. They were made to blossom throughout the seasons, a symbol of eternality in the face of incalculable endings. They were part of the memorials that had been set up at the site of the Nova Music Festival.
The site was crowded with many paying tribute, offering witness, and grieving. Some who were there at the same time as our group were clearly grieving close loved ones whose memorials stood before them. There were prayer groups, and visiting school and community groups. There were families and lone individuals. There were Jews and some non-Jews of all walks of life mourning and paying homage. Peppered throughout the site were art installations and memorials. Across the road was a nascent forest with a tree planted for each life that was taken that horrible day.
I spoke to a member of our group about her experience with this tragedy. She said she did in fact know one of the hostages--Hersh Polin-Goldberg--who was taken from the Festival. We believe he is still alive. The sorrow in this place is all too real. Some of the faces on the memorials looked so much like my daughter. She is twenty-one, and had we been living in Israel would likely have found her way to this festival. Being in the rarefied space, made sacred through unwilling sacrifice, I felt the heartbreak and the chill, despite the heat. I also saw the yearning, ever-more- urgent hope for those who were taken captive; for those we prayed were yet still alive. We lacked words enough to meet the gravity of this place. All we could do was be present. We could witness. I got separated from my group, lost in the wash of sorrow, weaving my way through the grounds. When I reunited with them, they were standing in a circle under some trees. One of our group, Cantor Jack Chomsky, was chanting El Maleh Rachamim (the prayer for the dead) with a depth and rich sadness I had never heard. We Jews are blessed to have prayers to utter when we cannot find words of our own.
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On the third day of our trip, two stories inspired me in particular. They are the stories of Yehudah Shaul and Ibrahim (not his real name).
Yehudah Shaul Among the journeys that we took that day were a trip to the West Bank. Guiding our group throughout the day was Yehudah Shaul. Yehudah’s story is a moving example of how a person can grow and change as we age and learn. It is also an example of courage and leadership. Yehudah was brought up in Jerusalem in an Orthodox family. As a teen, he studied in a yeshiva based in the West Bank. In 2001, he began his military service. Shaul served as an infantry combat soldier, and eventually he served as a commander during the second intifada. Two of these years he served in the West Bank. Shaul was following a path that was dutiful, patriotic, and imbued with religious obligation. It is the Israeli path for most. But, during his IDF service, there were things—orders, deeds, and operations—that gave him pause. Some of the things he was required to do seemed, well, less than moral. They ran counter to his understanding of Jewish values. As a soldier, he found no place and no voice for these concerns. A soldier, according to Shaul, might have questions, but you have a team counting on you to perform your part of the operation. Your buddy is going off guard duty at 6:00, and you need to replace him. Life and events in the IDF flowed along, stopping neither for a breath, nor for an ethics discussion. When Yehudah finished his army service, his concerns did not abate. He wanted to give voice to what felt was wrong about the deeds he had conducted in the military. He got in touch with old commanders and some fellow soldiers, and in speaking with them he learned that he was not the only one who felt uncomfortable—and in fact they, too, believed that much of what they were doing was wrong. Soon after completing his army service, Shaul founded Breaking the Silence.[1] Breaking the Silence is an organization of Israeli ex-military who engage in activism in support of Palestinians who are unjustly victimized by the Israeli Government and the IDF. Today, Breaking the Silence involves over 1000 soldiers and ex-soldiers fighting against the Occupation. Shaul could see that the IDF had long ago transformed from an army of defense to an army of occupation. He wanted to be part of an army of defense. Having stepped away from directorship of BTS in 2019, Shaul continues to support the organization as a board member. Since leaving BTS, together with Dana Golan, Shaul founded Ofek: The Israeli Center for Public Affairs[2], an independent think tank. Their mission is to help advance a peaceful resolution to the Israeli-Palestinian conflict. Here is how he puts it: We believe that only by ending the Israeli military occupation can the right to self-determination of Israelis and Palestinians alike be realized. Our vision is of two democratic states living side-by-side in peace. To achieve this end, Ofek performs rigorous research, presents policy solutions, and engages in advocacy in Israel and around the world. Yehudah was the guide who led us through Khirbat Zenuta and shared with us the background of how the village came to be blocked off by settlers and ultimately decimated by them (see blogpost for May 10). Ibrahim With Yehudah as our guide, we also had the honor of meeting Ibrahim. He quietly and humbly welcomed us to the patio outside his house. Yehudah and Ibrahim clearly had worked together and built a relationship over time, and Yehudah acted as our interpreter. We had made our way to Ibrahim’s home on foot, since the giant boulder placed at the head of the road by radical settler Inon Levy (see May 10 post) made driving to the village impossible. Our group sat outside his modest home in his tiny farmyard. There, Ibrahim and his wife were raising their family and trying to make a living. Much like the residents of Khirbat Zenuta, they have struggled for decades against the encroachment on access to their livelihood and growing, daily threats to their safety. Years ago, one of Ibrahim’s relatives was killed by a Jewish settler. That settler was later killed, and the IDF arrested Ibrahim and a few other young Palestinians. He was seventeen years-old. The arresting officials made him and the others lie face down with their noses on the ground for fifteen hours. They did not allow bathroom breaks, and they did not tolerate the moving of the teens’ heads to the side to breathe. Sometimes they let him up for questioning. He had no knowledge of what had even happened. Eventually, they released Ibrahim and the others as the trail of the investigation moved in a different direction. As Ibrahim made his way back to his village, he realized that he needed to take an indirect route. He did not want to encounter attacks, intimidation, or violence from Jewish settlers in the area. He took a wide, roundabout path back to his home, only to find that, as he crested the hill, the place where his village was supposed to be had no village. Settlers had destroyed it in his absence. Ibrahim was seventeen. He and his community were surrounded by a Jewish army who subjected him to torture. He and his community were surrounded by the constant threat of Jewish settler violence and land grabs. And, now, his village was destroyed. The young Ibrahim was prepared to commit to a life of violent resistance. But, then something unexpected happened. It was something for which he had no previous framework: Jews started showing up in his community with food and supplies. Jewish peace activists and aid workers revealed a Jewishness about justice, compassion, and serving the needs of others. He had never encountered such a version of Jews or Judaism. This powerful realization catalyzed Ibrahim to turn away from a path of violence to one of peace activism and partnership with Israelis (like Yehudah) also seeking peace and justice. It was clear from his farm and home that the family did not have a lot. Life and livelihood are hard, and they are made harder by the pressures from those with more power than this family. A few ducks made noise in the yard. A chicken crossed the patio. There were old pots, gardening equipment, and various vines and small garden plots. And, yet, we felt so welcomed, especially when Ibrahim’s sixteen year-old son, Mohammed silently came around with tiny cups of sweet tea. Just before we left, Ibrahim ceded the “floor” to Mohammed. This sweet and charming teenager stood before a group of American rabbis and shyly tried his (very good) English. He told us about kids at his high school who had been killed by settlers, and how he has been trying to deal with this trauma among the many he and his family face. He looked like my own child, sitting in class across the ocean. Mohammed wants to come to university in the United States. As he spoke, I thought back to the horrible incident Ibrahim described from when he was seventeen. I thought about how Jews showed up to support and help him. I thought about how these deeds changed the trajectory of his life. I thought about how this young man in front of us may never have existed had his father chosen the obvious path of violence. [1] Breaking the Silence [2] Ofek (ofekcenter.org.il) On May 7 we met with Meital Bonchek.[1] Unlike many of the secular activists we met, Meital is an Ultraorthodox woman who finds herself politically adrift and connected to strange bedfellows. Having grown up and raising her own family in an Orthodox community in Israel, Meital unexpectedly found her way to a different kind of activism. And she has found her identity as an Orthodox feminist.
While attending Hebrew University as a young woman, Meital came across a book in the library on sex trafficking. She had never known of this phenomenon and began to explore whether it was a problem in Israel. Of course, she did learn that people are trafficked against their will for sex work, even in the Holy Land. Bonchek took a step that is unusual in Israel: she reached out to activists working on this issue on the left. As an Orthodox woman, the left and its activists were a foreign entity. And yet she forged ahead to build coalitions “across the aisle.” What is remarkable about Meital’s story is that she did not “reach across the aisle” and stay there. She built partnerships, but used what she was learning to bring this taboo issue to her own community. Though Bonchek’s subset of the Orthodox community in Israel is not accustomed to pursuing “social justice,” its members are deeply ensconced in the Jewish concept of chesed—that is, acts of kindness that serve others. Bonchek and others are driven by the teachings of the prophets that we have ethical responsibilities to one another. (Much like Reform Judaism!) Deeply driven by the stories, suffering and abuse of trafficked people, Bonchek began to explore how feminism could fit into the ethical edifice of halachic[2], Orthodox life. And, in doing so, she began to build a coalition of Orthodox, and secular, leftist activists. As part of this work, Bonchek began working with an organization called Ma’aglei Tzedek, which is a social justice group within Orthodoxy. She also serves as the Deputy Director of the ‘Briah Foundation.’[3] As the Founder and Co-Director of the Coalition of Religious Organizations to Combat Prostitution, Bonchek spoke to the Israeli Knesset about the issue. She has been instrumental, too, in shifting the conversation in the “religious” community away from the blaming and shaming of women involved in prostitution. Orthodox, traditionally right-wing voices joined together with voices from the left, creating a partnership that has mobilized a national movement: a movement promoting a law to criminalize clients of prostitution.[4] The law they helped promote with activists from the left criminalizes not those who are engaged in prostitution against their will, but rather those choosing to utilize these services. Until the law passed, only traffickers were subject to criminal penalties. And, until Bonchek and her growing team began their activism, there were many in the Orthodox rabbinate who tended to blame the trafficked victims as moral failures. It is no great surprise to anyone reading this that current Israeli politics is deeply divided. One’s identity is either one thing or the other. But, Bonchek was able to forge a coalition of left and right that led to a national movement. She shared with our group an insight, “We can belong to more than one group. Our identities are sometimes fluid.” Straddling communities as she now does, Bonchek found herself in the astounding position of attending recent government protests of the right (in support of the proposed judicial overhaul) AND of the left (against it). "Her people" were in both camps. Rather than feeling adrift and out of place in either community, she is beginning to find a home in two different places. Even so, she describes herself as having no political home. She is also in search of a new spiritual home. Coda When we asked about giving up land for peace—even the settlements where many in Bonchek's community reside—she broke the mold of the Ultraorthodox line. The right-wing idea that we should not give land for peace was not, for Bonchek, the edifice that it seems from the outside. Land for peace, she shared, would of course be worth it if it were really, actually, reliable peace. In sharing this view, Bonchek opened a surprising and unexpected crack in the occupation debate: An important part of what is standing in the way of land-for-peace negotiations on the right is not necessarily an unwillingness to bend, but rather a reticence to believe that true peace is possible. [1] Religious-Zionists join fight against Israel's sex industry - Israel News - The Jerusalem Post (jpost.com) [2] Halakhic - definition of Halakhic by The Free Dictionary [3] The Briah Foundation [4] Seeking prostitution services is now illegal in Israel | The Times of Israel On May 7 we visited with Ronen Koehler of Brothers and Sisters in Arms in G'lilot.[1] Ronen shared with us the germination of his organization. Like many Israelis, Koehler served in the IDF. Koehler has dedicated forty years of service to the Navy, seventeen of which were on active duty. He is a business leader in the areas of organizational development and IT and is embedded in the "startup nation" identity of contemporary Israel. He and many others drew attention to themselves on the world stage as the reservists who refused to serve under a government that threatened a judicial overhaul. They were part of the large and vocal protest movement that was gaining ground in the months before Oct. 7. After Oct. 7, their work shifted. In response to the war, Brothers and Sisters in Arms began providing agricultural support. Many farmers were deployed in the IDF, and many foreign national farm workers left the country. Ahim LaNeshek (Brothers and Sisters in Arms’ Hebrew name) also assisted with the thousands of evacuations of Israelis from towns near Gaza and near the northern border with Lebanon. They began to dub their effort, “K’var Ba’im,” meaning, “Here We Come.” Brothers and Sisters in Arms deployed their organizational efforts to come and get people out of dangerous areas. There were no government or IDF efforts to do so. In the first ten days of their operation, they rescued 10,000 people from places like S’derot. Koehler told our group that the residents had been abandoned in the towns near Gaza. The IDF did not come. The residents sat wondering if Hamas would come, and Koehler’s organization filled the breach. Oct. 7 was a Saturday, and by Sunday, Oct. 8, Brothers and Sisters in Arms put up a civilian headquarters for donations to take south to the Gaza envelope communities and to families who were living in faraway towns as evacuees. It was in these headquarters that we met with Koehler. Ahim LaNeshek created a civilian "war room" to meet the wartime needs of the nation. The IDF was not equipped to massively support the civilian population. In fact, the army never even arrived at Kibbutz Nir Oz. When its residents were evacuated to Eilat (where they still are), the army never came there either. It became clear early on that those in need should call upon Ahim LaNeshek. Through this and other facilities, the group executed a huge logistical operation to manage donations and distribution of supplies. Volunteers also stepped up to feed soldiers, using donated restaurant facilities. The group fed 30,000 meals to soldiers in the immediate aftermath of Oct. 7. The group also became involved in pet rescue management. Prior to the war, the efforts of Ahim LaNeshek were focused on protest and getting media attention, and overnight, they changed their efforts to serve the needs of their fellow citizens. So, out of a movement of protest that mobilized to defend democracy, Ahim LaNeshek became a giant, effective civil service organization. Countless Israelis have been personally involved in their efforts. And as the group thinks about the future of Israeli society . . . as they think about charting a course for preserving democracy, they have created and mobilized a platform of organizational and civil management so effective it will likely serve as a basis for their bid to replace the current government. Israeli Culture: Where Has It Been? Where Is It Going? Koehler shared that for many years the Israeli government has been starving its public services through politicization. We are all so proud to tout Israel as a start-up nation, but, Koehler opined, the private sector forgot the importance of the public sector. As a result, the services of the government's public sector have atrophied. In the breach left by Oct. 7, many Israeli donors (of the private sector) showed up with funding for these community needs. Israel was not just looking to the Diaspora for funding, but was stepping up itself as Israelis began to pivot their sense of civic duty. According to Koehler, Israelis have begun to understand that being a citizen in a democracy has to be more than paying taxes. Citizens have to be involved if they do not want to cede the important social questions to politicians. Israel is beginning to understand that involvement sometimes means protesting. Sometimes it means volunteering. Sometimes it means philanthropy. The prevailing ethos used to be "I did my army service, now I am going to make money." But, this is changing. Ahim LaNeshek is creating a database of people who share their values and who want to be involved in a democratic process and the growing civil society. And their message and efforts are becoming a ubiquitous part of Israeli life. Beyond the Emergency About four weeks into the war, the emergencies had been covered, and the organizational leaders could see that a longer-term effort was needed. This was when volunteer Avi Noam started over 120 kindergartens. This was when Ahim LaNeshek began to create youth activities and teen support programs. Two months ago, Koehler's team realized that it was time to get ready for the future. How can Brothers and Sisters in Arms create a sustainable civilian support organization for situations that are not necessarily emergencies? They have begun to develop a more formal organization, hire staff, and clarify their areas of focus:
In a previous post, I mentioned that Maoz Inon and Nadav Tamir talked about how this moment of crisis is an opportunity. It was hard not to hear in Koehler's remarks both the enormity of the task and compelling possibility for a better Israeli future. _____________________________ Epilogue: Our Diaspora Role For many years, since my childhood, the message I heard from Israelis and Israel was at times dismissive, and at times contemptuous of Diaspora Jewry. For one thing, a prevailing assumption in Israeli culture was that truly there could be no real safety as Jews and no “real” Jewish life outside of “the Land.” We don’t live there. We don’t know what it is like. Our points of view—our “say”—had no real weight or value in Israel. Again and again, speaker after speaker, on this trip and in other recent conversations with Israeli colleagues, Israelis are saying something different: We are not asking for Diaspora support. We are asking for Diaspora partnership. One way this plays out is in the desire on the part of many peace and democracy activists that we use our voices that decidedly are not “of the Land,” to push forward a moral intervention. We do not let our loved ones drive drunk. We may not let our loved ones choose a path of destruction. Koehler and others want our voice and our influence (especially on OUR government) to help us all recenter our moral core; to build a homeland of justice and democracy. [1] They Refused to Serve. Now They’re Supporting Israel’s War Effort. - The New York Times (nytimes.com) אחים ואחיות לנשק - למען הדמוקרטיה (ahimlaneshek.org) Yesterday, May 8, 2024 we visited the site of Khirbat Zenuta in the West Bank. It's heartbreaking to call it a “site,” because as recently as Oct. 28, 2023 this was a town of 250 residents, Palestinians who had lived there for generations. We had to walk up to the erstwhile village on foot, because one of the Jewish settlers, Inon Levy[1] who recently was sanctioned by the American government used his construction and demolition business equipment to literally install a giant boulder in the middle of the road, preventing its residents from driving in and out. We also had to go on foot, because as our bus drove on the road to this village in Area C[2] of the West Bank, it was met with makeshift barbed wire fencing that Jewish settlers (with no authority or accountability) had installed in the roadway. As we made our way up the path on foot, I could see a discarded trash bag with clothing spilling out. One item, a silky purple garment on the top of this pile, sparkled in the astounding sunshine. I imagine the woman who wore this garment for special occasions: I can envision how she must have dropped it as she ran and harried from her home. She is not a dead memory, but a person still out there, still trying to live as her life and livelihood are ever squeezed more tightly. Up on the hill, just beyond, we could see what is called an unauthorized and illegal settler outpost. All Israeli settlements in the West Bank are considered illegal under international law. An occupying force is not legally allowed to bring any of their population to settle in the occupied territory. Israel does not accept this limitation, but they have agreed to some limits. The Rabin government during the Clinton administration, as well as subsequent Israeli and American administrations, have made and reiterated an agreement that Israel would freeze new settlements, assenting to only expanding previously established settlements. As a result, new settlements (outposts), which often pop up overnight through the covert operations of Jewish vigilantes and thugs, are unauthorized as well as illegal under, even Israeli law. However, the Netanyahu government looks askance at these unauthorized outposts, giving them a carte blanche for unchecked violence, intimidation, and thuggery. As the Palestinian villagers left, pushed out by encroachment on their water rights, their freedom of movement, their grazing land, and their harvest access, they also had to daily contend with intimidation by settlers, the IDF (Israel Defense Forces), and settlers pretending to be IDF. Despite all this pressure, many hoped they would be able to return in a few days. We learned all this from independent Israeli activists who work to defend these villages and their residents. These activists often escort children to school for their safety and shepherds to their fields to assist in defense against settler violence. Of course, we did not learn the story of this village from its residents. They were gone. They had fled. They had been forced out. The village was in rubble…old stone buildings were in ruins. Here and there were the detritus of households. But off to the left was the abandoned school building. It had been funded by the EU in its construction and included about five classrooms in an L formation around a courtyard. We made our way around the back wall and were met with the sight of the inner part of the L: It was a gasp-inducing disaster. I had to catch my breath. This education facility, in use but a few months ago, was strewn with bulletin boards, notebooks, whiteboards, writing implements, the dish drainer from the staff break room, a laminated train on the wall, bookshelves, textbooks, wall charts with nutrition lesson material, student work hanging on walls and from ceilings, broken windows strewn on the floors, and roofs caved in under the weight of huge tires. The villagers had thought they would try to return in a few days, when the conflict with the settlers dissipated some. But, Inon Levy and his team of outpost bullies went in the day the Palestinian villagers left and decimated the village, again with Levy’s construction equipment. There is something horrible -- perhaps because I am an educator -- in seeing the destruction of classrooms, especially with all the artifacts of education strewn about. It was a sacrilege, by which I mean it is just one more example of how the dream of Zionism--pluralistic, democratic, multicultural, justice-oriented--has been hollowed out by a racist and perverted reading of Torah. These deeds and the complicity of the government to these deeds DO NOT illustrate what it means to be a Jew, to live by Jewish values, or to make real the Zionist dream. Even if this crisis of conscience did not impinge on the rights of non-Jewish humans, we would still be called at this moment to a moral crisis: These policies and behaviors do nothing to truly protect Jews, Judaism, or the State of Israel. Continuing the banality of this kind of terror, perpetrated by Jewish settlers (in OUR names, on the world stage), further mires our people in corruption and immorality. This is not self-defense. This is bullying. We should be ashamed if we are complicit. On Yom Kippur this year, it will be a communal "chatati" if we do nothing to upbraid this madness. [1] Israeli bank freezes account of settler Yinon Levi sanctioned by US | The Times of Israel [2] West Bank areas in the Oslo II Accord - Wikipedia
Now, in the wake of his parents, Bilhah and Yaakov Inon's Oct. 7 murders by Hamas, he turned his parents’ lives’ work and teachings about
toward not just his business and community investment. For Inon, their deaths marked a shift in his path forward—like so many in our fractured and harried world, Inon had already begun to look for ways to live meaningfully. After Oct. 7, he turned his dreaming toward the most meaningful dream there is for him: pursuing peace. He believes and works toward a shared Israeli and Palestinian future based on reconciliation, security, safety, and peace. He reminded us that this moment is an opportunity. The sides of this divide will keep arguing and pointing fingers. Palestinians and Israeli Jews can point fingers about who did what to whom forever. But, he believes, it is time to build a future together. Since Oct 7, Inon has begun to “walk the path of peace”. He has begun to appreciate the need to know the “other”’s pain, sorrow, dreams, narratives, and aspirations. We must invest in one another for peace. We must know one another. Along this path he walks, Inon has met many others also walking the path of peace, including Palestinians. He shared with us a teaching he learned from a Palestinian on this path named Hamzeh Hawawde. Hawawde told him: You can forgive the past, you can forgive the present, but you cannot forgive the future. His response?: Amazingly, Inon forgives Hamas for his parents’ Oct. 7 murder. He forgives Netanyahu and the government for his parents’ Oct. 7 murder. He finds meaning in sacrificing life for the purpose of peace. The battle now is how to make peace, and to build a future. We must dream it, talk about it, find partners, and amplify this voice. Astoundingly, he believes that he and the growing camp of voices who are partnering in this work have a strategic plan for a negotiated peace in the next six years. A staff member on our trip, Nadav Tamir, was the one who first mentioned to us that this is a time of crisis, but also an opportunity. And, Inon reminded us that every safe border Israel has was achieved through diplomacy. Negotiations, says Inon, must happen, because it is the only real way forward. This is a chance. Peace with Egypt, peace with Jordan, peace with Qatar—none were achieved through force, but only through diplomatic relations. Only when leaders turned conflict into words of commitment did conflict ever sustainably dissipate. It is hard to capture the charisma and power of Inon’s remarks, but you can perhaps get a better sense of what he has to share by watching his TED Talk here: Aziz Abu Sarah and Maoz Inon: A Palestinian and an Israeli, face to face | TED Talk. When he left us, he made his way to meet the German ambassador. Next month, he will be meeting with the Pope. He is sharing this path the world over. It was a powerful honor to learn from one of the world’s visionaries. I am reminded of the connection between visions and prophecy. There is hope. Keeping Hope Alive: Hostage Square and the Hostage Families Forum Later in the afternoon we visited Hostage Square and the Hostage Families Forum. The square is an open patioed space just outside the Tel Aviv Art Museum. It is filled with posters, signs, and powerful art installations set in vigil for the hostages. I was speechless as I walked through and exhibit that was a replica of a Hamas tunnel through which the viewer was invited to walk. It was installed with posters of hostages and the sound of bombs piped in. It was terrifying and heartbreaking. It was at Hostage Square that I tried to begin memorizing their names. We walked from the square over to a building that houses the Kibbutz movement’s organizational offices. It was in this building that a civil organization blossomed within two days of Oct. 7. These spaces are now home to families of hostages—those released, those deceased, and those who await freedom from captivity. We heard from Gilad Shoham, the father of Tal Shoham, a father in his thirties who is the centerpiece of his family’s life. Both of Gilad’s grandchildren were taken hostage and have since been released. But, without their father, their healing cannot fully cohere. They arrived home in extreme mental unwellness. For Purim, his nine year-old grandson, Naveh, wanted to dress up as a terrorist. His four year-old granddaughter saw rapes, murders, and burnings. They need their dad home. Shoham told us that the Red Cross has been useless to them. The hostage families have met with the Red Cross many times, urging and lobbying for their participation and intervention. They claim that Hamas will not allow it. Yet, the Red Cross is quick to see to the needs of Palestinian prisoners. Unfettered in his remarks he asserted that the Red Cross reticence comes down to not wanting to help Jews. We also heard from Tamar, whose family members were in their Kibbutz shelter when the terrorists came. The shelters were built for bombings, so they had no locks on the doors. Doors were “locked” by an individual on the inside holding it closed with their hand. Itay, a large and imposing man, the father of Lior and Gali held the door closed with all his considerable might. Gali is just thirteen, but she knew, as the smoke began to overtake her brother Lior’s consciousness that they had to get out of there. When the Arabic outside died away, and all seemed quiet, she climbed out of the burning building. Gali was shocked into stillness as she watched a terrorist shoot her dog, Mocha. A terrorist grabbed her, put her on a motorcycle and took her to Gaza. She was there with two other hostages, in an apartment, for 54 days. She had no knowledge of her family. When she was finally released, her family had to tell her that Lior had died that day in the shelter. Itay, who had been shot, was too weak to carry his son’s passed-out body out of the shelter window. When the Red Cross escorted the first released hostages across the border into Israel, Gali was the first one off the van, smiling from ear to ear. As the months have passed, reality has settled in, and the horror and shock of all she has endured has begun to take its toll. When we read the paper or listen to the news we see the posturing and “cards to play” in the geopolitics of the region. Can we leverage the fighting to get the hostages? But, Shoham reminded us of a deep knowing here in Israel: People are not bargaining chips. War or no war, the government has a duty to rescue their citizens. And they are failing to meet this duty. I finally arrived at my hotel twenty hours after departing Allentown. So grateful, but so tired. The trip organizers were able to upgrade our hotel…I can only think it's because hotels have fewer guests right now…I was not expecting to see and experience beauty and pleasure on this trip, but travel sometimes yields its unasked-for jewels. When I entered my room for the evening (really, “night” at this point), I noticed a loud and strange noise coming from the open window. Upon investigating, I saw that it was not a window, but a balcony. The sound was the monumental surf of the seashore, across the street. I gazed upon paradise. It could be so easy to forget that just a few miles away children are suffering underground.
Like many Israeli hotel breakfasts, this morning’s was an array of flavors well beyond the American conception of breakfast…from sweet to savory to umami. Sour to rich. And dark-tasting coffee. Olives and dates and nut-filled pastries. Eggs and cheese and wonderful bread. And salads! It could be so easy to forget that a few miles away there are families who suffer on the brink of famine. It’s hard to figure out how to feel. As I write this overlooking the water, I see runners going by and people splashing their feet in the surf. I am reminded of the interview on NPR with Penina Pfeuffer I quote the other day (previous post). Meghna Chakravarty, the interviewing journalist, asked her to talk about a previous time she had mentioned she could see Gaza from her apartment. She clarified that it was not that she could see Gaza. . . it was that she knew it was only a few miles away. It was not across the globe. It was not what Vietnam was to the United States. It was not as far away from her as Iraq or Afghanistan are/were from us. And, yet, I look out on a peaceful boardwalk. I watch people listening to headphones, their bare feet in the sand. I know that on many US campuses, as I write this, protestors are crying out against “colonialism.” I think for many Jews of older generations this sounds like a woke buzzword. But, this is not a new idea, and it is not a radical one. I remember studying colonialism in college, and I found it to be a profound model for social critique. It has even helped me unpack and enlighten my relationship with Israel (as an American Jew) more ethically through the years. However, as I look at the evidence of leisure and economic prosperity all around me, I do not see colonialism. Colonialism was never about one group prospering while another does not. It is about claiming racial overlordship in a foreign place—a place to which you have no claim. Palestinians may have claim to this land, but it is not without common claim by Jews. What looks like colonialism is just the success of one group with claim to this land. Pollyannish as it may sound, it is my hope that this success, beauty, and blessings may be shared. The vision does not have to be one of enmity. There is a version of Zionism in which this is a Jewish homeland, but that it is not ONLY a Jewish homeland. Being here reminds me of being in the United States . . . we sit miles from center cities bereft of opportunity and safe neighborhoods. And, yet, we turn our eyes away when “the good life” and its moments of pleasure show up on our doorstep. We deserve our prosperity (even if we do not have it) as much as Israeli Jews deserve theirs. Palestinians deserve prosperity just as much, too. Israel cannot make this prosperity happen for non-citizens (to be distinguished from Palestinian citizens of Israel), but it can also do more to stop standing in its way. ----------------------------------------------------- This morning, I slept late in an attempt to recover from my hours and hours of travel. I could hear the surf again, but still did not want to rouse yet. (Our program starts at 1:30pm today). But, then, I heard a siren. I panicked a bit. Surely, no bomb will hit the hotel! I did not know where the shelter was! I looked in the hallway and called out. No answer. I went out on the balcony to see if I could figure out what was going on outside the hotel. People in the street, people on the beach, people in cars, and people on balconies had all stopped and were standing still as the siren wailed. Of course. I had seen film footage of this. I knew about it, but I had never been here to participate in it: on Yom HaShoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day) in Israel at 10:00am, a siren blares. All the Jews in the nation stop where they are and what they are doing and stand at attention--amod dom. I stood on my balcony, participating in this Israeli mitzvah for which I had never had the solemn opportunity. It was powerful and holy. Today is Yom HaShoah. And, yes, people are on the beach and out running. There are surfers and sea kayakers. People are at work. People have their dogs and are doing yoga. But the hotel’s lobby has a banner with a lone flame, along with the word, “Yizkor”—“Remember.” The airport last night was bedecked with the faces of hostages and art exhibits in their honor. The construction site across from the hotel has a huge banner that reads: “Yachad Nanetzach”—“Together We Will Be Victorious.” As anti-Semitism has been rising all around us in the United States, I have begun to see myself in all the old photos from Europe in WWII. The women in these photographs—at home, in transit, under siege, in camps—they seemed to be from another world; a time wholly other and apart. But, more and more each day, as hate rises forthrightly around us, I am seeing myself in them. I see that I am no different. I see that their moment was just like this moment. The black and white of the photography is no longer the protective forcefield it once seemed. And I think how often I forget—how often we in the United States Jewish community forget—how much this nation was built on the shoulders of a national trauma. Not just that Israel’s independence was a result of the Holocaust (scholars debate this), but that the ethos and culture of this place is still a story about trauma. Trauma of 1939, and traumas of 1948 and 1973 and 2001 and 2015. . . But, we are American Jews. We started to build what our Jewish world meant long before this was a state. Our Judaism is about turning aside from so much of our difference (even more so than most of us realize). Life here in Israel is built around being a Jew(ish society) in the wide world with no filter. There is no protective covering of common nationhood beyond one's Jewish identity. Like living on the border with Gaza, I imagine this edge feels like living on the line between life and death. On the living side, it is hard to walk away from a beautiful day at the beach. Postscript: The receptionist at the hotel front desk was kind enough to show me how to get to the shelter in the hotel, which, by the way, she told me, they have not had to use much. I found the most amazing travel agent, Shiri. She helped me get a United flight to Paris tonight, a connecting flight on El Al later tomorrow, with ETA in Tel Aviv 12:10am on May 6 (Israel time).
I am glad to be in transit as I sit at my gate in Newark. I am grateful for all the help, flexibility, generosity, and creativity that went into making sure I could begin this journey. It's been strange to keep my head in it for the last 36 hours, as it was touch and go until we departed for the airport. I am feeling the weight of the fact that no airlines will fly into TLV except El Al. It makes this moment feel like all that much more of an in-the-family crisis. As I was expecting to be grounded, I felt a kind of yearning for my people and our land . . . like I was going to fail to make it to the seder. I am glad I can be present there. I am grateful I can see people's faces, touch the ground, feel the air, and begin to further understand this fraught moment in so many spiritual, cultural, emotional, and practical ways. Before Landing Thinking of being in Eretz Yisrael gives me pause. I lived in Jerusalem for my first year of rabbinical school -- as was the policy for all first-year, American rabbinical students at Hebrew Union College-Jewish Institute of Religion. A profound learning -- one that now seems obvious -- became clear in this year abroad: Israelis and Americans are different. Even Jews. There is a cadence, zeitgeist, and energy to American Judaism and American Jews which makes our lives something separate and apart from the project and the challenges of being Jewish in Israel. I began to see with greater clarity all the ways in which my Jewish education had prepared me for Israel to be a kind of spiritual Disneyland. . . A destination for my American trip to the land of my spirituality. Around this time, I became enamored with a poem by the late Israeli poet-laureate, Yehudah Amichai. It illustrates the flaw in this model so deftly. I will copy it here for you in English: Tourists by Yehuda Amichai Visits of condolence is all we get from them. They squat at the Holocaust Memorial, They put on grave faces at the Wailing Wall And they laugh behind heavy curtains In their hotels. They have their pictures taken Together with our famous dead At Rachel's Tomb and Herzl's Tomb And on Ammunition Hill. They weep over our sweet boys And lust after our tough girls And hang up their underwear To dry quickly In cool, blue bathrooms. Once I sat on the steps by agate at David's Tower, I placed my two heavy baskets at my side. A group of tourists was standing around their guide and I became their target marker. "You see that man with the baskets? Just right of his head there's an arch from the Roman period. Just right of his head." "But he's moving, he's moving!" I said to myself: redemption will come only if their guide tells them, "You see that arch from the Roman period? It's not important: but next to it, left and down a bit, there sits a man who's bought fruit and vegetables for his family." Meeting the Family The ocean between us can seem wide indeed. (Flying there is taking me more than a day!) Travelling to Eretz Yisrael is both a homecoming and a visit to a distant, foreign place. It means I feel strongly and proudly assertive of my Jewish identity and its connection to Israel. At the same time, when I look at life there -- on the news, through folks I know, or on the ground, in the land itself, it feels far away from a lot of what I know and love about being Jewish. So, I am trepidatious. I am nervous. What will it mean to encounter this land and its people again? What will it mean to wrestle with the conflicting values I will encounter within myself, within others, and within what the current situation (the "matzav") reveals? One travels to feel connected. I am afraid I will encounter only fissure and brokenness. I am afraid that the family will feel like strangers, the gulf of what it means to be Jewish widening into an ocean.
Today I learned that, for the second time in a week, my flight home has been changed, and will likely change again . . . likely as far out as May 19, making my trip impossible to begin with. So, right now I am not sure if I am going to travel at all.
I am safe. My family is safe. These things are indeed blessings. I found a wonderful travel agent who is working on helping me. She has told me that the only airline continuing to reliably fly is El Al. I am not giving up just yet, but it is, as you might imagine, frustrating. As my trip has gotten closer and closer I have started to have a kind of quickening of the heart that comes when I get close to travelling to Israel. There is something special and connected to the deepest parts of me--a kind of wordless yearning--that wakens. I will be sad if I have to return it to its soft corner in my heart. Packing - The Baggage
As I turn my heart and my GPS to the east, I feel the gnawing, clawing, furious tug of our Jewish struggle here in the United States. I am saddened, fearful, proud, angry, confused, and profoundly concerned about what is happening on campuses around the US. It is hard to know what to think when there are so many conflicting reports on the nature of these protests.
Free speech is a tool that keeps Jews safe, but anti-Semitism is real.
My wonderful and thoughtful colleague, Rabbi Geoff Mitelman has written a compelling outline of the layers of messaging that is coming out of college campuses. He helps us see how some of the messaging aligns with progressive Jewish values, while other demonstrations cross the line into something which threatens our community. Here are his compelling remarks (shared with permission): https://www.facebook.com/gmitelman/posts/pfbid02qCUL59yvoQVuFSarZcadCeJ7avtMEwrcsM1crdEQtYCga389ya57m8zNA1Wuz6yNl Regardless, the rise of anti-Semitism all around us, here in this land of freedom, is unprecedented in my lifetime. It seems like a story my grandparents would have told me about. And, then, there is my flight. If El Al is flying, and no American airlines are doing so any longer, what does this say about the status of anti-Semitism in this country? Perhaps these companies are concerned about the war "over there, " but surely the unrest on campuses is feeding the anxiety about how these companies are handling Tel Aviv flights. So, we will see. I will continue to submit blog entries, so you will get an update about travel plans. But, perhaps I should not be surprised that everything and everywhere are connected, even in sad and troubling ways. Signing off until after Shabbat . . . May it be one of shalom.
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I am only a few days away from travel, and I am getting more and more nervous and excited. I am of course nervous about safety and flight arrangements and the like, and I am excited about the ways in which travel opens one's world. But, I am also nervous about bringing the fullness of myself and my moral compass to the task of listening.
Why should this make me nervous? It makes me nervous, because I feel called to this trip as a mission. That is, I see it as a spiritual duty. It is my duty to generously and with a full heart bring all I am to bear on the questions this terrible war and the occupation present. Like many of us, I have seen and learned much already on these questions. And, yet, this journey presents potential chances to look anew at old ideas. I need to refrain from relaxing into the comfort of the known. I need to abandon the warm embrace of my certainties. Failure to step into unfamiliar perspectives will limit my ability to lead effectively in this historical moment. I was listening the other day to an NPR piece about how Israelis are experiencing this war. One of the guests was Pnina Pfeuffer, founder of the New Haredim and a leader within the ultra-Orthodox community in Israel. She shared an insight that resonates with me: "[The current situation is] very confusing. I think that's the best definition I have of what it feels like right now, because I used to have very clear opinions. I still have very clear values, but the reality has shifted.. . . So applying those values to a reality that has shifted is confusing. I don't know what I think about every single thing anymore" (Roundtable: What do ordinary Israelis want from their leaders? | On Point (wbur.org). This is wisdom. Not knowing makes us feel vulnerable--and we Americans (amongst other contemporary folk) HATE that. We are all so much more comfortable and comforted by certainty--perhaps even more so than we were twenty or thirty years ago. The silo-ing of culture and morality that are part of a social-media driven world of echo chambers makes this work of open listening even harder; even more uncomfortable. It's like getting on an eleven-hour flight and sitting in a middle seat in coach: It will, in fact, be uncomfortable for quite a while. But, if I put up with the discomfort long enough, the hope is that I will (safely?) reach a new and distant destination. |
Rabbi Shoshanah TornbergGrateful to Keneseth Israel of Allentown for the opportunity to travel to Israel at this harrowing time, I go with an open mind, a sorrowful heart, and the need to keep my certainties in check. I hope to learn through listening, and I will share some of that learning here. ArchivesCategories |